Layer ONE : On the Outside
Name: Victor Liew Chu Ern
Birth Date: 8 March 1986
Current Status: single
Eye color: black/brown
Hair Color: black (at the moment)
Righty or Lefty: righty
Zodiac Sign: the zodiac with the two fishes,I forgot what is it called...(pieces or somthing like that)
Layer TWO : On the inside
Your Heritage: Chinese
Your Fears: Women (very SCARY creatures)
Your Weaknesses: Women (yupz, SCARY creatures)
Your Perfect Pizza: any toppings will do with some barbeque sauce
Layer THREE : Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow
Your thoughts first waking up: Issit Sunday today?
Your Bedtime: It depends
Your most missed memory: Hmm....primary and secondary school days when I had no (or less ) resposibilities
Layer FOUR : Your Pick
Pepsi or Coke: Coke
McDonald’s or Burger King: Carl's Junior?
Single or group dates: It depends. Mostly, I prefer single. But if she doesnt want to go out 1 on 1 then no choice group date lor...
Adidas or Nike: Nike (Sweat Shops!!)
Lipton tea or Nestea: errmm...wats the brand of tea usually served in mamak stalls?
Chocolate or vanilla: Both!
Cappuccino or coffee: coffee
Layer FIVE:
Do you Smoke: no
Curse: no
Layer SIX :In the Past Month
Drank alcohol: wine (during breaking of bread)
Gone to the mall: Jusco?
Been on stage: not in the past month lar....
Eaten sushi: Ya. The cheap ones bought in Jusco
Dyed your hair: Ya. Black
Layer SEVEN: Have You Ever?
Played a stripping game: Err...
Changed who you were to fit in: Yes. U can call me a two headed snake, "liang tou se" (thats wat sylvia called me =p )
Layer EIGHT
Age you’re hoping to be married : I want to be a bachelor^^
Layer NINE: In a Guy/Gal
Best eye colour: hazel, blue, green....haha
Best hair colour: brown, blonde, black...hahaha
Short or long hair: Long, but not too long either....shoulder length will do..
Layer TEN: What Were You Doing
1 minute ago: chatting on msn
1 hour ago: meeting in editing room
4.5 hours ago: sleeping
1 month ago: taking exams
1 year ago: Enjoying Christmas holidays at home ^^
Layer ELEVEN : Finish The Sentence
I love: myself ( although there are other persons I love, but I feel very selfish at the moment)
I feel: that I am not just special enough. In other words: unloved (but that is not the case actually)
I hate: myself (contradiction?? Sometimes, I really cant stand the person in me)
I hide: my true self
I miss: my true self (I want to express him! )
I need: A LIFE!
Layer TWELVE: Tag FOUR People only
1) dina
2) Ivan
3) Ben
4) Debz
Thursday, December 28
Wednesday, December 27
What's wrong in my life..
Due to unforseen circumstances, I am at Singapore now, spending whatever left of my holidays here. Amidst this busy schedule, I realised that "why am I doing all these things?" Are all these things really worth the effort and time?
Mindless, useless, meaningless...That's how all these activities seem to me at the moment...
That's it! I've messed up enough of my life...Its time to deal with it.
I am just like a kid, still holding on to my life, still wanting to have control in my life. Its time to set priorities right.
Its time I should stop living for myself but live for Christ. Till this day, I am still not willing to surrender my life to Him, trust Him, live by faith, and claim His promises...
Mindless, useless, meaningless...That's how all these activities seem to me at the moment...
That's it! I've messed up enough of my life...Its time to deal with it.
I am just like a kid, still holding on to my life, still wanting to have control in my life. Its time to set priorities right.
Its time I should stop living for myself but live for Christ. Till this day, I am still not willing to surrender my life to Him, trust Him, live by faith, and claim His promises...
Saturday, December 16
fair or unfair?
Hmmm....I just found out something today. My sis is going to get RM100 for 1 A scored in PMR and an extra RM200 if all straight As.
Hey!! How come I didnt get it for PMR. And I didnt even get anything for my SPM results...
>.<
haihz...dunno why I getting so restless and anxious lately....
be more patient, victor!
Hey!! How come I didnt get it for PMR. And I didnt even get anything for my SPM results...
>.<
haihz...dunno why I getting so restless and anxious lately....
be more patient, victor!
Tuesday, December 12
down with stomach flu..
zzz...I am supposed to be in singapore yesterday for training. Unfortunately, I got the stomach flu from my sister. Coincidentally, my dad got the ilness too on the same night. My mom was down with the flu shortly after my sister became ill. Even my maid got the illness and vomitted a few times....
Haha....poor little sis. because of her illness she cant go for the camp and she even felt a bit guilty after spreading the ilness to my familly. Haha...the doctor is right. Stomach flu is contagious.
Anyway, everybody is feeling better now....
Haha....poor little sis. because of her illness she cant go for the camp and she even felt a bit guilty after spreading the ilness to my familly. Haha...the doctor is right. Stomach flu is contagious.
Anyway, everybody is feeling better now....
Sunday, December 10
at the bowling competition..
Today, Erwin invited me for his church’s bowling competition. I was quite reluctant to go because it’s a bowling competition. I do not have an affinity for bowling nor am I pro in it. Anyway, I did not regret going there because I get to meet this cute girl in his church. She is really cute - the way she bowls and the way she smiles. Haha…regretted not having a chance to talk to her.
Anyway, to my surprise, my team actually won the competition (she was in my team too) - Best overall team… and even more to my surprise, I actually got 2nd runner up..hmmm...not a bad achievement for bowling against a group of secondary school kids....
haha, Erwin, invite me again for ur next bowling competition!
Friday, December 8
Farewell my dear friend…
Why do you treat me so coldly?
I guess our friendship will never be the same again…
au revoir, ma chère amie...au revoir
Wednesday, December 6
what I saw in saw 2...
Last night, I watched Saw 2 for the 2nd time. I was quite disturbed the first time I watched it, and I felt even more disturbed after watching it for the 2nd time. Its not the gory scenes that disgust me(although they do but to a lesser extent), but the statement that "those who do not appreciate life, do not deserve life".
Sad to say, humans often start truly appreciating things at the very moment those things are taken away from them. I do not deny i am one of them. Are the mundane things of life worth complaining compared to the fact that we are still alive? We are still breathing, eating and enjoying life. Why do people in this region of the world complain so much about life when compared to others who are in much worse conditions? The blessings that we have, we always took it for granted and even expect more good things to come in the future. So, there is some truth in that statement.
But then again, who has the right to condemn other people unworthy of the lives they live? Who has the right to bring judgement? Therefore, can we just the the lives of other people who abused their lives and did not appreciate their own life? No, I don't think so. In this age, the trend nowadays is to advocate human rights. So, it is common today to think that "our life is our own, and we live the way we want to, as long as it does not infringe the rights of others and does not hurt others". It is assumed that is the underlying moral principle in many societies today.
So, this brings us back to the movie again. So, this guy who claims to have encountered death experienced rebirth and it brings new meaning in his life. So he spents the rest of his limited life studying the reactions and survival instincts of people by placing them in life and death situations where they have to sacrifice something(like gorging out our own eyeball, or gorging out your friend's eyeball) in order to survive. So, literary, we watched how people kill each other just to survive a little longer. Of course, movies cannot be the true portrayal of human nature but...it gives us an idea of how we might react in a "worst case senario". So that is how he ends the lives of his "test subjects", condemning them unworthy of the lives they possess. So, life is precious and people are prepared to sacrifice something in order to live, which is something called "survival instincts".
Look, I am no movie critic. The movie is entertaining, the plot is engaging with an unexpected twist at the end, the characters were well developed, the scenes very quite gory. Its just the theme of the movie that bothers me. So, this is just an opinion, my own personal views on the issue.
God created man, in order that man might live, not merely surviving, but living life to the fullest. But only God alone, not other man(especially the guy in saw 2), has the right to judge those who don't deserve live. This is because it is God who gave us life.
Our duty is just to live out our life.
Sad to say, humans often start truly appreciating things at the very moment those things are taken away from them. I do not deny i am one of them. Are the mundane things of life worth complaining compared to the fact that we are still alive? We are still breathing, eating and enjoying life. Why do people in this region of the world complain so much about life when compared to others who are in much worse conditions? The blessings that we have, we always took it for granted and even expect more good things to come in the future. So, there is some truth in that statement.
But then again, who has the right to condemn other people unworthy of the lives they live? Who has the right to bring judgement? Therefore, can we just the the lives of other people who abused their lives and did not appreciate their own life? No, I don't think so. In this age, the trend nowadays is to advocate human rights. So, it is common today to think that "our life is our own, and we live the way we want to, as long as it does not infringe the rights of others and does not hurt others". It is assumed that is the underlying moral principle in many societies today.
So, this brings us back to the movie again. So, this guy who claims to have encountered death experienced rebirth and it brings new meaning in his life. So he spents the rest of his limited life studying the reactions and survival instincts of people by placing them in life and death situations where they have to sacrifice something(like gorging out our own eyeball, or gorging out your friend's eyeball) in order to survive. So, literary, we watched how people kill each other just to survive a little longer. Of course, movies cannot be the true portrayal of human nature but...it gives us an idea of how we might react in a "worst case senario". So that is how he ends the lives of his "test subjects", condemning them unworthy of the lives they possess. So, life is precious and people are prepared to sacrifice something in order to live, which is something called "survival instincts".
Look, I am no movie critic. The movie is entertaining, the plot is engaging with an unexpected twist at the end, the characters were well developed, the scenes very quite gory. Its just the theme of the movie that bothers me. So, this is just an opinion, my own personal views on the issue.
God created man, in order that man might live, not merely surviving, but living life to the fullest. But only God alone, not other man(especially the guy in saw 2), has the right to judge those who don't deserve live. This is because it is God who gave us life.
Our duty is just to live out our life.
Attention Moochers!!
Important!
3 cups of Nissin cup noodles , chili crab, spicy seafood and chicken mushroom flavoured respectively for MOOCHING!! Not opened yet!! Come to the 2nd floor pantry at block C, Temasek Hall, NUS while it lasts.
3 cups of Nissin cup noodles , chili crab, spicy seafood and chicken mushroom flavoured respectively for MOOCHING!! Not opened yet!! Come to the 2nd floor pantry at block C, Temasek Hall, NUS while it lasts.
Tuesday, December 5
The start of holidays...
I've been quite busy the past few days doing nothing. Suddenly when the exams are over, emptiness is felt. All that time spent studying is now suddenly available. Haha. So i guess its dota, cs or just going out for the next few days in this month...
The past few days were quite eventful ^^
I didnt know that people would go to China Town just to buy shampoo. Anyway, I almost earned a bottle of loreal shampoo and another bottle of loreal conditioner because some absent minded girl just left her bought items on the hawker centre table. Right Deborah? =) I could use a new bottle of good shampoo too...
Anyway, today went out with Ivan, Dina and Eric to orchard. I was quite surprised we managed to meet Joy and Nay Ling at kinokuniya because Dina had this wanderlust which distracted her and made her roam from shop to shop while we walked from Plaza Singapura to Taka.
Anyway, I am stuck in my room now....what's for later? hmm....dota?
The past few days were quite eventful ^^
I didnt know that people would go to China Town just to buy shampoo. Anyway, I almost earned a bottle of loreal shampoo and another bottle of loreal conditioner because some absent minded girl just left her bought items on the hawker centre table. Right Deborah? =) I could use a new bottle of good shampoo too...
Anyway, today went out with Ivan, Dina and Eric to orchard. I was quite surprised we managed to meet Joy and Nay Ling at kinokuniya because Dina had this wanderlust which distracted her and made her roam from shop to shop while we walked from Plaza Singapura to Taka.
Anyway, I am stuck in my room now....what's for later? hmm....dota?
Saturday, December 2
underestimated emotions...
My exams have finally ended today(at least for this semester). The freedom it brings! truly wonderful! So, to celebrate it, I invited myself and persuaded fung hong to join (or interrupt) Ivan's and Deborah's lunch at bugis =) we walked around bugis while deborah went from shop to shop shopping. Haha...I enjoyed myself^^ It feels good to be out of NUS once in a while.
But seriously, when I came back to my room after the outing, the same feeling that has been haunting me from the past two days came back to me again. Never underestimate your own emotions. That's what I've learnt. When I tried to study the past two days, my mind simply wandered and my heart distracted. I really couldnt absorb anything that I have read. I wanted to score well for my exams but I just simply did not have the mood, or motivation to study anymore. Ya, I was feeling down during the test.
The worst thing that can simply happen before a test is not feeling stressed, but feelings of helplessness, loneliness, being rejected, unloved, hopelessness and despair. Oh well, its all over.
Life goes on...
But seriously, when I came back to my room after the outing, the same feeling that has been haunting me from the past two days came back to me again. Never underestimate your own emotions. That's what I've learnt. When I tried to study the past two days, my mind simply wandered and my heart distracted. I really couldnt absorb anything that I have read. I wanted to score well for my exams but I just simply did not have the mood, or motivation to study anymore. Ya, I was feeling down during the test.
The worst thing that can simply happen before a test is not feeling stressed, but feelings of helplessness, loneliness, being rejected, unloved, hopelessness and despair. Oh well, its all over.
Life goes on...
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