I've never realised I am so weak.
Yesterday, when the time came, I just ran away in fear. The fear of what others might say or what others might think if I had stayed behind. An act of cowardice. I am still afraid of the same thing I was afraid of since my primary school days - being teased.
After that, my conscience kept bugging me. My weakness overwhelms me.
why am I made so weak? I asked myself.
"To show that God is strong." Came the answer from the movie ' Facing The Giants'.
I am still unable to face the giant called failure, I am bounded by chains called pride, and I am weighed down by guilt.
At least today, I have already accepted that fact and moved on. Anyways, I wanted to play squash for TH. I wanted to go and fight not just sitting on the bench watching KR and SH girls fight each other with one-sided matches At least, let me be defeated by the team members first, then I would be happy to sit on the bench. Gimme a chance T.T
Although I'm weak, I'll grow stronger...
Thursday, January 31
Sunday, January 27
The End!
"...a place...for my dreams...to live...", the last sentence echoes throughout the silent hall, Marianne slumps on the crate and buried her face. The spotlight dims, the music fades, a thundering applause erupts...
The next few moments, the curtains open, the backstage crew, managers, directors, producers, scriptwriter and cast made their way to the stage, and bowed before the blinding spotlight. The thundering applause resounds. Some people made their way to the stage, eager to present flowers or handshakes of congratulations.
Everyone was smiling, thinking, "Its over!".
Some with a tinge of reluctance, sadness, emptiness, muttered "Its over..."
The whole play that took us a few months of hard work has finally served its purpose - to be presented to the audience.
I really hope that everyone that went enjoyed the play. Well, the music as well, of course!
Although I keep bragging about how good the music is, deep down inside, I don't want you all to praise the music by the music team, I just want them to enjoy it.
I got to know some new friends through productions, like the lights people in the sound room. Yeah, both lights and music are essential for the play! Yeah, of course, sets and costumes are also essential too.
I'm glad its over too. I won't be FOOLED into joining productions again next year....
unless, if it is a musical ^^
The next few moments, the curtains open, the backstage crew, managers, directors, producers, scriptwriter and cast made their way to the stage, and bowed before the blinding spotlight. The thundering applause resounds. Some people made their way to the stage, eager to present flowers or handshakes of congratulations.
Everyone was smiling, thinking, "Its over!".
Some with a tinge of reluctance, sadness, emptiness, muttered "Its over..."
The whole play that took us a few months of hard work has finally served its purpose - to be presented to the audience.
I really hope that everyone that went enjoyed the play. Well, the music as well, of course!
Although I keep bragging about how good the music is, deep down inside, I don't want you all to praise the music by the music team, I just want them to enjoy it.
I got to know some new friends through productions, like the lights people in the sound room. Yeah, both lights and music are essential for the play! Yeah, of course, sets and costumes are also essential too.
I'm glad its over too. I won't be FOOLED into joining productions again next year....
unless, if it is a musical ^^
Friday, January 18
Update!
Although its just the first week of school, it feels like I've been through another 1 whole semester again. First week has been so busy. Amidst the busyness, I enjoyed every moment of it. I guess it gives me a sense of purpose and something to do.
The number 1 time occupier is productions rehearsals. I've been quite busy editing the songs and going for rehearsals, although sometimes, I dun pay attention to the scenes and I miss my queue.
The number 2 time occupier is squash. I've been playing almost everyday lately, yup, certainly some improvement but there is still a long way to go for me.
Lectures have been quite boring. I've been falling asleep quite a lot.
VPU's pre-ihg video is done and screened, although there are some screw-ups in the screening of the video, I felt I was largely responsible for it...Wei De wasn't too happy with me and the projector team...Hehe
I've played badminton today. I've seen some improvement in my stamina but at the same time, I've made lots of careless mistakes, like hitting the shuttlecock out with my backhand, my accuracy is getting worst. I've been using my arm instead of using my wrists for backhand resulting in more out balls. I guess its the bad thing about playing squash too much.
The one thing that I've been procrastinating a lot is organising a VCF meeting.
Haha...this semester, I dunno somehow, I find certain ppl quite irritating and my patience is reaching its limit. Now I know it feels when I irritate other people with my nonsense. Yup, so I've cut down a lot on the nonsense talking and crapping. If I've nothing better to say, than just dont say it. So, don't be surprised if u find me more quiet than last time.Also, I've made a couple of new friends. Ya, I'm learning to be more sociable. Hehe..
Thats a lengthy update. Got lots of stuff to do tonite.
The number 1 time occupier is productions rehearsals. I've been quite busy editing the songs and going for rehearsals, although sometimes, I dun pay attention to the scenes and I miss my queue.
The number 2 time occupier is squash. I've been playing almost everyday lately, yup, certainly some improvement but there is still a long way to go for me.
Lectures have been quite boring. I've been falling asleep quite a lot.
VPU's pre-ihg video is done and screened, although there are some screw-ups in the screening of the video, I felt I was largely responsible for it...Wei De wasn't too happy with me and the projector team...Hehe
I've played badminton today. I've seen some improvement in my stamina but at the same time, I've made lots of careless mistakes, like hitting the shuttlecock out with my backhand, my accuracy is getting worst. I've been using my arm instead of using my wrists for backhand resulting in more out balls. I guess its the bad thing about playing squash too much.
The one thing that I've been procrastinating a lot is organising a VCF meeting.
Haha...this semester, I dunno somehow, I find certain ppl quite irritating and my patience is reaching its limit. Now I know it feels when I irritate other people with my nonsense. Yup, so I've cut down a lot on the nonsense talking and crapping. If I've nothing better to say, than just dont say it. So, don't be surprised if u find me more quiet than last time.Also, I've made a couple of new friends. Ya, I'm learning to be more sociable. Hehe..
Thats a lengthy update. Got lots of stuff to do tonite.
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