Too naive?

Sometimes, when you were young, you dream too big? You have your ideals about the world, you have your passion? You want to make a difference. You want to make a change.

What is my dream? What are my ideals?

Sometimes, I think I dream too small…

Lessons learnt

“We learn more from our failures more than our successes”

If I were to be my own professor and grade my effort and achievements for the this semester, I would have gave an “F”. I am not being modest nor am I too self-judgmental. One thing I have found lacking is focus.

“I need to get a job. But I don’t know which job I want”

“How ar? Anything lar…”

“Am I aiming for first class? Second upper? Or just to pass?”

World affairs? Singapore affairs? Malaysian affairs? School affairs? I do not know nor care about. I am comfortable living in my sheltered sphere for today. Whatever tomorrow may bring let it be, for today, I shall eat drink and be merry. What do I want in life? I do not know. Everything seems fine to me – then I might as well say I want nothing at all.

If  only I knew my nonchalant attitude in life would drift me further away from life into mere existence, I would have done something about it.  What does it mean to have a life? To have enjoyment? To have purpose? To have a direction or a destiny?

 

The seemingly murky future lies ahead of me.