Fitting in...

I tried quite hard to fit in ur group...maybe I tried too hard. From this holiday onwards, I am not gonna change my personality or character just to fit in any group. I will no longer tag along with people who actually dont want my company. I will no longer try to please people just to let them accept me.

Yup, if u all are not going to accept me for the way I am, then so be it. Well, its not an easy stand to make, especially when I am about to join a holiday comm where I will tend to be ostracized and forgotten... I predict a certain degree of loneliness ahead during tech crew...well, anyway, there wasnt a holiday period when I was never lonely...so its normal...

Loneliness really drives a person to do whatever he wants. Ya, no more nonsense talk for me, no more attention seeking behaviours for me. Its time to be the person I want to be, a person respected...

Everyone calls me a moocher...but really, I glady accepted that claim for merely getting attention. I am not really a moocher who just takes and not give. I take but I also give. Sometimes Its not that I go grab everything that is free....but the way I portray myself, I sadly regreted that I ever did such shameful acts of grabbing free stuffs and so on. I did it just to boost my name only.

As u guys can see, I am just another attention seeking brat. This superficial character u see here, is me.

So, this holiday time gives me a chance to redeem myself. A chance to be myself. After the exams, there is this sense of purposeless: I suddenly feel lost. But now, I guess with the amount of time I have, I want to do some serious soul searching: What have I been doing my whole life?

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Good Luck For Finals!!!

Everybody!! All the best!!

My first paper starts tmr. haha...

It is this time of the year again...

I really really hate this time of the year....

It is the Time that Temasek locks The Piano!!!

I cant believe it!!! its just some stupid exam period, why do u have to lock the piano??

T.T

In mugger land....I'm the Mugger King (this line wasnt added by me!)

Here I am surrounded by super muggers: beside me, behind me, in front of me (especially the person in front of me), diagonally right in front of me, diagonally left in front and the list goes on...

Camping here in mugger land =)

Somehow, the mugger aura is affecting me...

Camping here in mugger land =)

The person diagonally in front of me is eating some mugger sweets (the sour sweets in green packets) just to keep herself awake. Her face squirmed as she popped the sweet into her mouth. like this : >.<

Camping here in mugger land =)

Alas, much time has passed at mugger land. Its time to resume mugging.

Happy Mugging everyone!!

I'm sorry...

Firstly, I am saying sorry to myself. I have been torturing myself recently by going to either extremes : spending 20 hours studying non-stop, or playing dota and doing nothing the whole day.

2ndly, Sorry to my friends whom I have disturbed them while they were studying.

3rdly, sorry to those friends who are constantly enduring my talking nonsense of "being pro", "i am cool", "my sparta body"....u know. Sorry for being a nuisance. Yeah, I admit: I am not cool, I am not pro...coz only insecure people speak alot to get attention - that shows alot of myself.

4thly, sorry to a friend whom I should have trusted more. Yeah, I know u r dissappointed in me. U said it urself. Sorry... I know we havent talked to each other for long and when we do talk, I always find something to quarrel with u. REally sorry!! I really hope to rebuild the friendship. I really hope it could be like last time. Please dont still be mad at me =(

5thly, sorry for being so inconsistent. Sorry in my different treatment with different people. sorry for different treatment of same people when I am in different moods.

6thly, sorry to all my friends for being so selfish.

7thly, sorry to my friends for being so insensitive.

8thly, sorry for my lack of patience and impulsiveness.

9thly, sorry to those friends whom endured my ranting despite they themselves are facing worst problems than me. Yeah, thanks alot! It really helps me to put in better perspective.

10thly, sorry spoiling the mood of u guys when u all go out. I know, the world doesnt revolve around me. I am really sorry I didnt realised that when I am at bad moods...thats y I am selfish and insensitive.

11thly, I m sorry for my hypocrisy. for example I preach about being content, but I am not contented. blah blah...

12thly, sorry to myself for the lack of discipline. Doing things that I shouldnt do just because I feel lazy or I am bored and seek pleasure..Woe be to me.

13thly, sorry to the anti-jiwang president for posting this kind of post...haha...sometimes, I nid to confront with reality and admit all my shortcomings..

There are many more shortcomings I am aware of myself, but for now, these are the ones I nid to deal with first.

Hi everyone!! I am feeling bored now

Hey HEy!!! HELOOOO!! Anyone out there who is not mugging, or is taking a break from mugging, respond to me!!!

Well, I have a relatively free day today. I guess I'll spend time mugging then...

ANyway, my new policy is to learn from jason, I study only when I have the mood to study. I study whatever I want to study or feel like studying. And when I am tired, I just go and sleep....woohoo!!

Surprisingly, I dun feel that much stress yet. althought its only 9 days to my next test. I still feel no urgency.

should I MUg??

confession

Two nights ago I was supposed to be studying, which I did, but I felt that I couldnt concentrate anymore (it was just an excuse). So wanting to be emo, I watched 'happy birthday' - the recent topic of discussion among a few blogs.

Lolz...the story was quite touching. haha

While halfway through watching, hui en knocked on my door and told me she got supper for me and ivan. But ivan was sleeping, well, oh darn, too bad lar har, I had to finish the whole $5 murtabak all by myself =)

Lol...luckily while watching the touching parts nobody knocked on my door...haha...for some reasons, I rather not be disturb at that moment...

anyways...I've given up on my experiment..but I'll begin another experiment - sleeping more can help improve studies!! ^^

Hey rh, sleeping more will make u smarter...I am gonna try prove that..besides..I read in men's health 'a 16-year study at Harvard shows that people who slept for five hours or less a night were 32 percent more likely to pack major kilos than those who dozed a full seven hours.'

So.....SLEEEEEP is GOOD!!!

hack care studies, sleep is much more important...

emo time(part 2) - 祝我生日快乐

Haha...blame rh and sp for posting 'happy birthday' in their blogs...

Yesterday, ls played me the song'祝我生日快乐'

nice song...been listening to it continuously again...haha